Monday, May 28, 2007
bbq at alki beach
my nearest and dearest in seattle.
rachel at 1:02 AM
Sunday, May 27, 2007
little progress being made. i fell asleep after dinner, i only just got feedback on my draft from my prof, my mind is a convoluted mess of words, i am addicted to white chocolate kit kat, taiwanese milk candy and soya milk. funny how they are all white. hmm.here the pics of the sunset at the golden gardens park taken last tuesday. we had indian food in ballard, got some cupcakes from cupcake royale and headed to the beach. strolled hand in hand for a bit, and then sat down to chat till night fell. i looked up at the sky after a bit and noticed the twinkling stars. happiness. :)
rachel at 10:07 PM
it's a sluggish, overcast sunday, quite a disappointment for me, because, aside from the little time i spend in school and doing assignments, i've been spending practically everyday outside exploring some part of the city. actually, i've been mainly just eating out.so this was another one of those fun-filled weeks. think kayaking on lake union, a barbecue on alki beach, watching the sunset at golden gardens park, followed by watching the sunrise at alki, riding the ferris wheel and carousel at fun forest right next to the space needle, eating sushi, indian food and mix ice-cream, and building lots more happy memories.
i've been saying it forever but pics to come soon. assignment due on tuesday! :/
rachel at 3:35 PM
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
i keep on eating when i'm not even hungry. addicted to white chocolate kit kats at the mo.it's been raining persistently, dreary weather we've got today, and i've spent most of it indoors doing work and it's driving me crazy, which translates to a dearth of inspiration. i desperately need to churn out content in an elegant fashion for tomorrow. instead i get distracted by watching old eps of sex and the city, uploading photos to my computer and then checking them out, daydreaming as usual, and thinking about memorial day weekend. which, i will probably not go anywhere because of assignments due next week, but i do desperately want to visit vancouver again before my visa expires.
and then, there is my fridge, which is acting so weird - it shuts off by itself, and to turn it back on you have to turn it to the highest setting aka the lowest temperature. so today i wanted to make hot chocolate, but i discovered the milk was completely frozen. i wanted eggs too, and out of half a dozen eggs only two were non-cracked/non-frozen. sweet.
i shouldn't be thinking about all this! argh.
rachel at 12:59 AM
Monday, May 21, 2007
bliss
Labels: love
rachel at 1:59 AM
university street fairthis blog is in dire need of photos. i have been taking lots of them, i just haven't been posting here. or blogging very much in general. add me on facebook if you have an account - i have more photos up there.
went to the university street fair on saturday, where they basically turn the ave into well, a street fair, with food, outdoor performances and tents selling all sortsa stuff.
it's been raining alot today so i spent all my time indoors, got a pounding headache and got cranky. but someone brought me dumplings which tasted so good, and later we went to QFC, so seeing him really cheered me up :)
rachel at 12:43 AM
Saturday, May 19, 2007
happy feet
Labels: love
rachel at 3:25 AM
Friday, May 18, 2007
lucky/blessed/thankfullife can be unexpected yet wonderful yet cruel at the same time.
but i'd rather go through this now than not go through it at all, because being with him has been nothing short of amazing.
Labels: love
rachel at 1:05 AM
tempting, but not for me.another crazy week draws to a close. i feel relieved everytime classes end on thursday.
cigarettes and weed on a monday night? no thanks, i'll just take errr two shots of vodka. even so those guys are crazy - i mean, i'd an assignment due the next day and they had papers to write too. anyway things are different now - i couldn't care less about that player and his smooth-talking ways. and, i'm in a detox state of mind. no coffee, not really interested in alcohol, just smoothies, bubble tea and spending QT with him:)
it was funny, i drank some sake over dinner earlier before that silly party, so after those shots i was kinda high. i'm so glad he came, and carried me to the car, where i proceeded to punctuate every noun, verb and adjective in my sentences with fuck. i.e. i can't fucking believe i went over to his fucking house...it's so fucking stupid. what the fuck was i fucking thinking?
giggle giggle giggle. then i get so tired of blabbering incoherently that i fall asleep for a coupla minutes, wake up and continue talking.
yes. that's how fucking silly i get. but still sober enough to make hot chocolate.
drama of the week. everything else was relatively good in comparison.
rachel at 12:35 AM
Sunday, May 13, 2007
gotta stop living like this, but i sure could get used to it.going out every single evening, coming back late at night or, in the case of the past 2 days, 6am in the morning. friday evening was spent dining at asian bistro, followed by drinks at sky music lounge, and then sitting in the car in the supermarket carpark just talking, drifting in and out of sleep and watching the sunrise. saturday was the taiwanese night market, clubbing at trinity, strawberry crepes for supper and chilling at a friend's place.
pics to come soon when i am done with my assignments and muster up enough energy to post them.
rachel at 3:46 PM
Saturday, May 12, 2007
trysthe dropped off the hoodie that i had left at his place earlier on.
the familiar scent of him (cigarettes) is cottoned on to it. as i think back to thursday night, i remember what a sinful feeling it was. just him and me, entangled together, tumbling around, and lost in our own world, hip hop music playing in the background. he, whispering sweet nothings. me, disbelieving but lured nonetheless. tell me something in korean, i say. he does, and i ask what it means. beautiful but stubborn, he replies.
after he'd showered and dressed i sat on the edge of his bed, feet propped up and watched him smoke. it felt great, to be his girl, to be a part of his world, if only for awhile. he passes me my top, i put it on, he carries me, plonks me down on his bed and kisses me. we rub noses and he gives me that adorable smile i so love. he smells delish and i don't want to leave.
there's just something so alluring about him, but i think it's just cuz he knows how to push all the right buttons. last month i found myself crazy about him, right now though, the excitement and butterflies have simmered. he came along at a point where i wanted someone like him, someone who didn't want a commitment, wanted to have fun and who was full of surprises.
at the moment though there's someone else whom i'm so thankful to have. someone who makes me happy, who makes me laugh, who is so much fun to be with, who started out as a good friend. i'm gonna be so fucking sad when the quarter ends in about 3 weeks.
and so, when i was doing my laundry earlier, i held on to my hoodie. inhaling the scent, reminiscing the late nights laced with flirtation and seduction, euphoria and ecstasy, cigarettes and alcohol. it's time to move on.
i threw it into the washing machine and shut the lid.
Labels: musings
rachel at 4:16 PM
Friday, May 11, 2007
it's been a busy week. building and solidifying relationships and conquering different nationalities. clubbing, shopping, dining, tanning (or baking!), lovin'...with some studying thrown into the mix.it's nice to play the field and be emotionally detached.
it's not nice to play the field when you are emotionally attached to someone but things are still in the nascent stages.
ayeeee.
rachel at 11:46 PM
Friday, May 04, 2007
high.beer on the beach, gazing at a sky scattered with stars, and getting behind the wheel for the very first time :)
rachel at 3:04 AM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
dinner outi've been too lazy/tired/cranky/busy to cook ever since i got back from LA so i've been eating out with my friends almost every day. there was the cheesecake factory, vietnamese, thai, and taiwanese cuisine. and lots of pao pao cha:)
Labels: dining
rachel at 10:03 PM
truth be told, i'm still thinking of him. what the fuck, right?as time goes on he starts creeping into my mind again. not what i want right now cuz there's been no contact since LA. it's perplexing cuz it's not like there was anything real going on in the first place.
ok i need to do my work and not think so much. which of course i can't.
fuckity fuck fuck.
rachel at 2:01 PM
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
i hate that it's may.i hate that i'm feeling empty inside.
and i hate that there's no one to comfort me.
rachel at 10:39 AM